Likklesimo @Likklesimo@abdl.link

Had a visitor when I went flop...

😥 I'm sorry, know I should be dead.

know its a bit shit, but Stu said i should post it

Update time

Sorry I've not done this for ages. Been back in work since Easter, that's basically taking all my energy. Still trying to get my driving licence back.

Generally things are going ok but still a struggle most days to do much.

blugh. too tiered.too useless. too stupid. should have just given up at the beginning of the year

Been a while, sorry ... I'm still off work... But getting there I guess. This has been a distinctly crap way to start a year.

This is what's.... Walking reigns with paw prints...

Anyone guess what I'm making here?

So I have an issue .... I still feel suicidal periodically and like walking along cliffs cuz they are pritty... Don't trust myself not to just go off one if I do go for a cliff walk...

So ... Update... Still home still can't talk properly. Went to the out of hours emergency gp last night, by the afternoon each day since dischatge I have been getting suicidal. Been give an increase on the diazapan to try and keep control. I'm still exhausted still finding it really hard to filter inputs particularly noise... Gp is going to try and get a review of meds underway. Still blame myself for mummy's dad dying and basically everything that goes wrong around me.

Sorry I'm a mess...

so im home now. still cant talk.... sometimes manage a word but no more than that without huge effort.
still feel crap, still basically living on huge anxiety attack....